Me? I’m a fighter. I never give up on anyone or anything, no matter what.
That would explain why I am in the situation I’m in now….
I’ve been tagging along for three months as the man of my dreams figures out what he wants to do with his life. I’m madly, heels over head in love with this guy. He knows it, too. Lately I’ve been getting the somewhat silent treatment, and I didn’t say anything, I thought I’d let him figure it out this time around.
He cracked, and he told me he felt like he was being an asshole towards me, and I just said “I wish I could change that”
He took it as, I wish I could change the way he felt, but I really meant I wish I could change the way he treats me most of the time.
I’m stuck, and I’m trying to get out of it
Ok I understand you want your “distance” so nobody finds out about us, but what am I suppose to think when you continuously go off campus with your ex girlfriend, you walk with her to her class, she meets you at your locker, she posts pictures of you two together, and you ignore me for a whole entire day? You are showing me another side of you I’ve never wanted to see. You’re falling away from me, and here I am thinking you’re the one who was scared to lose me! Haha! Yeah right, it seems like lately I’m the one fighting to keep us even remotely close when you’re out doing other things with your friends, and you stop texting me, but here I am still waiting on your every text and phone call. I totally mistook you, just like everyone else that has come into my life. I thought you’d be the one fighting to keep me around, but it’s been the opposite, and honestly I can’t stand it. I don’t know how much longer I can keep this going. Acting, pretending like I can wait until you graduate. I’m being stupid, I shouldn’t have ever gotten myself into this in the first place, this is ridiculous. I’m stupid, very fucking stupid. I have been and still am believing all of your lies, your pathetic lies. I’ve still been waiting around for you, when you’re off with Ashley, I’ve been doing so many things for you while you don’t even acknowledge them. What the fuck am I supposed to do now? Now that you’re fresh out of high school and you’re free, no college for a few months, just work. And friends, and Ashley.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
I feel so…….unimportant…..to you…..
I know it shouldn’t be that way.
But there’s nothing to do, maybe this is my chance to move on, and find something better for myself.
But then again, maybe I should hang on just a little bit longer….
I’m not saying keeping tabs on your child is a bad thing, but I’m not saying to take it to extremes.
Keeping a GPS device on your kids iPhone or Android is okay, only if you lose the phone and need to find it. Not to track your child, and figure out where they are going every second of the day.
Not allowing your child to have a passcode on their phone is okay if you really need something, but if you’re going to read all their messages and make sure their language is appropriate, then you need to grow up. Kids will be kids, let them be.
See my Mom decided to go through my phone today, and read all of my texts between me, my bestfriend, and the guy i was talking to. She is pathetic, and I hate her.
She can’t leave me alone for two seconds without asking me about my personal life, and thats worse than a clingy boyfriend.
PLEASE GROW UP.